“ Pick yourself up, girl. I know you think you’re drowning in sadness right now, but you can save yourself.
Because you thought that you couldn’t live without him and even though you think that you’re barely getting by you’re alive.
I know that it’s hard to function and think straight when he’s around.
And you can blame this on him all you want, but it’s not his fault anymore.
It may have been his fault at first when he broke your heart, but it’s your own fault you are still letting yourself suffer.
If he is not physically visibly doing all he can to try and make your life hell, it’s not his fault.
You’re letting him ruin your life when he could not care less about how you live your life anymore.
Do you hear that?
He doesn’t care.
And he may have told you that he did 3 months ago, and he may have meant it.
But sometimes people change their minds quicker than we thought they were capable of.
No matter how crazy it sounds sometimes people do wake up and realize they might not want you anymore, and that thought will bother them until they are completely convinced they don’t need you or want you in their life anymore.
And I swear to God three months ago I thought that I was gonna stop breathing when he told me he didn’t feel the same way anymore and although my breathing became shallow breaths and desperate gulps of air my lungs were still working and my blood was still flowing perfectly
I know you want to listen to that sad break up song and cry in the dark
But if you have any interest in ever healing you press skip no matter how much it relates to your situation right now or how much you love it
And I know you want to stay home in bed all day and all night thinking of the past when everything was good but when people try to make plans with you I beg of you, please go out and be in the middle of everything and be a part of the action because even though you think that person won’t leave your mind they will
It will be an accident when it happens but you’ll find yourself thinking of something else
And you’re busy and caught up in all the things in your life and you don’t even have time to mourn over what you had, and you find yourself not wanting to any longer
Don’t stay away from the places you use to go just because of the memories you have there
Make new memories with new people, it won’t kill you I swear
Your new beginning is today
I want everything to be over.
I want to die, honestly. I’ve tried so many things, so many times and nothing has worked. I wish I could just pull that trigger already.
I’m tried of everything. I don’t know what I did to deserve to be punished, but I’m suffering. Everything good in my life has been taken away, or is being taken away.
Everyone says, “It’s darkest before the dawn.”.
Well, I know it can get darker, but if it does, the darkness is going to suffocate me.
It’s winning more and more everyday.
“ You were lightening across my blue sky and I clung on waiting for better days.
“ no one told me that you could be broken by the same person who made you whole